“Human beings are funny. They long to be with the person they love but refuse to admit it openly. Some are afraid to show even the slightest sign of affection because of fear. Fear that their feelings may not be recognized, or even worst, returned. But one thing about human beings puzzles me the most is their conscious effort to be connected with the object of their affection even if it kills them slowly within.”—Sigmund Freud (via skylinesdarling)
“I used to think that when I got older, the world would make so much more sense. But you know what? The older I get, the more confusing it is to me. The more complicated it is. Harder. You’d think we’d be getting better at it. But there’s just more and more chaos. The pieces- they’re everywhere. And nobody knows what to do about it. I find myself grasping, Nick. You know that feeling? That feeling when you just want the right thing to fall into the right place, not only because it’s right, but because it would mean that such a thing is still possible? I want to believe that.”—Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist (via eletheowl)
“Most people’s major life regrets are not about the things they’ve done, but about the things they’ve not done, the goals they never reached, the type of lover or friend or parent they wished they’d been but know they failed to be.”—The Last Hours of Ancient Sunlight by Thom Hartmann (via quote-book)
There are words and phrases we thought we would never say again to any other living soul. Perhaps there is a barricade we must break through before adorning someone new with words we gave to someone we used to know. It’s a transition in itself, really. And I can call every woman pretty, but…
I couldn’t sleep so I decided to write what was currently on my mind. I have nothing else better to do (excuse me if u come across any grammar/punctuation mistakes. I’m too lazy to edit). With school just around the corner, as horrible as it may be, I’m really excited to finally be in a program that I know is right for me; A program that will aid me in my artistic development and journey. For once in my life I truly believe that I’m on the right path. As some of you may (or may not know) this year I decided to take it upon myself and do myself a favour to transfer into the fine arts program at the University of Calgary. I was really fortunate to get into the visual studies program. I was lucky to have gotten in, considering the fact that I wasn’t able to present the faculty with a fully loaded art portfolio. I managed to get into my program with just two pieces of art and a reference letter from my amazing professor ( SOOOO yeah…I feel like a badass :p hahhaha). I’m more than thrilled to start my journey and work towards my dreams and ultimately, towards my future. But as happy as I’am, I’m constantly attacked with doubt more so from the people around me if anything else. Don’t get me wrong, I’d be lying if I wasn’t a little scared, heck, I’m scared as fuck but I’m more optimistic if anything. When it comes to careers in the arts I find that people are a little too pessimistic ( or maybe their being realists? I don’t know you tell me). Yes, I know it’ll be a hard venture and i’m prepared for that. However, what I find the most troubling of all is the fact that people aren’t giving themselves enough credit when it comes to their own creativity. Not only that but people aren’t pursing their passions in life. They’re conforming to set standards. In some way I feel that people are abandoning their dreams for fear that they will A) fail, B) are unaware of what their creativity can translate into in terms of careers, etc or C) If they can find success in what they wish to do. People, nowadays, are playing life a little too safe if you ask me. There are a lot of people who are diving into things that they aren’t truly passionate about. People need to understand that times have changed and that the norms and standards that they are following and living by are of the past. The following paragraph was taken from a person I really admire and respect. Her name’s April Rodriguez and she’s a choreographer. Here’s exactly how I feel.
Despite my parents’ protests, I boldy decided to pursue an artistic career. Subjects of the arts are often looked down upon by older generations, but I think that’s only because THEY are living in another world.. another era.. another time period. THEY lived in a world where you would NEVER get a good job if you didn’t have a degree. You HAD to go to school, or else you were “unskilled,” then unemployed. If you really think about it, the world we live in NOW has changed so much. Nowadays, there are several jobs and opportunities that demand so much more creativity and imagination than what general Math, Science, and English classes will teach you. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not saying that school is useless and everyone should drop out. I highly value education and LEARNING.What I’d like to say is that more support should be given to those who choose to cling to their imaginations. Nowadays, creativity is GOLD. It wasn’t THEN, but it definitely is NOW when so many people have been programmed to follow a seemingly predictable mode of thinking. Honestly, I’m grateful for the lessons that LIFE has offered me outside of an educational institution, and I respect those who choose to follow their dreams and their passions regardless of the multiple roadblocks that come in between. To pursue and trust a dream… a figment of imagination.. is a VERY frightening path compared to a paved road. That’s why most people don’t take it… But… at the same time, most people who DO IT end up serving a bigger purpose and end up leaving a legacy behind their courageous acts.
Her last sentence, by far, spoke to me the loudest and struck a chord within
I refuse to live without any passion. Life is too precious and short to just float by without purpose, anyway.
Without passion and creativity, life would be tasteless, bland, depressing, colourless…….Call it whatever you want, leading a a life with no passion whatsoever would be plain miserable. At the end of the day, for me anyways, its not about the money or about expensive cars (although it would be nice ) but more so about LIVING. So long as I live a humble lifestyle full of passion, love and excitement, that, by far would be the most rewarding. So before I end rant, to all of you who are reading this, if anyone is, do yourself a favour and get out there and do something fulfilling and rewarding with your life.
It’s been about ONE year ( & two months to be exact) now since I’ve started dancing and its been an AMAZING journey thus far. I’ve been blessed to become part of a team of talented individuals who excel in what they do. Not only that but I’ve grown to love them all to the point where they have become my second family. Everyone of them constantly inspire me to become not only a better dancer but as well a better person. I remember taking my very first workshop held by Universesoul (the very team I’am so lucky to be apart of) and learning from Miguel, Goldie and Sandra. That day honestly changed me.The feeling of excitement and adrenaline that was invoked was something that was truly thrilling and exhilarating. From that point on I made it an objective of mine to take as many workshops as I physically could as it was something i wanted to become better at……Not just dancing but fully being able to express myself physically and emotionally through movement.
I was also lucky enough to take two hip hop dance courses this year at the university taught by Tara Wilson. Because of Tara I learned SO MUCH of the underground Hip-hop scene and the culture and history behind breaking, popping and locking. Not only that but her classes really helped me become more comfortable within my own skin and really challenged me physically, emotionally, mentally and creatively. If it wasn’t for Tara, I might of never known of the underground dance world.
Although it feels like a big accomplishment, making it onto Universesoul, performing at ITZ 5, etc I feel like I have a huge, long, challenging road ahead of me still. Compared to everyone else on the team who have been dancing for years I feel like like a burden sometimes because of my inexperience. I always feel like I’m one step behind everyone. There are a lot of things that I’m having troubles with when it comes to dancing and one of the major problems is picking up choreography. I’ve gotten better at it but i’m not picking it up as fast as I want to. For some it comes naturally but for me on the other hand its been hard. It’s generally something i have troubles understanding and grasping for that matter. Just when I feel like I have the movements down I forget it once everyone is separated into groups to perform. Secondly, I feel like my movements are really sloppy in general. I remember having a conversation with Jace this one sunday practice and she told me that I should work on making my movements a lot more sharper and I agree with her 100%. Watching myself from videos of our practices, I feel that my movements aren’t as sharp or as clean as I would like them to be and in the end, when i watch myself, i look awkward. My movements feel “restricted” at times because I’m still learning to fully understand and adjust to the rhythms of both my body and to the music . Lastly, I have this problem of not looking in the mirror when I dance. The mirrors are there for a reason but even when I do try my eye’s always revert to the ground. The reason why I think I do this is because I lack confidence. Growing up and even now, I’ve always been shy and reserved. You would think by now being on a dance team and having to perform in front of a crowd, it would get a lot easier but let me tell you its not! For myself anyways the transfer is one that is slow and something thatI constantly struggle to adapt to. I mean you’re putting yourself out there for people to watch, criticize and judge and as a result it creates this negative mindset within. This is something that I HAVE to change.
There are times where I’ve wanted to quit, cry or even give up for that matter but what I’ve learnt is that nothing in life comes easily. You must work hard and reap the fruits of your labor, as that one famous saying goes. I’ve worked so hard to get where i’m at. I WILL NOT LET LET MY STRUGGLES GET THE BEST OF ME(yet alone defeat me). Not only that but I have an undying amount of hope; Hope within myself and within those who continuously inspire , teach and guide me in this new journey that I’ve immersed myself within. I will become the dancer I wish and aspire to be.
I have a lot of things I want to accomplish within dance: 1) Start taking more house classes 2) Create my own choreo to teach to the team/others/workshops 3) find my own creative voice> What kind of dancer AM I?!?! 4) Create a piece/set to perform/showcase 5) PERFORM PERFORM PERFORM 6) Meet other amazing dancers 7) Collaborate with someone 8) Learn from different choreographers 9) Work on my Flexibility to avoid injuries 10) Make sure I not only dance but live (as strange as that may sound)
Before I end of my rant I wanted to give a special shout to everyone on the team. TO EVERYONE ON UNIVERSESOUL! THANK YOU for taking care of me and giving me this opportunity to grow with each and everyone of you. You guys have no clue how much you all mean to me. <3 I Just wanted to let all you guys know that (even though not all of you have tumblr :p)
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